I found my old journal and was reading through it - it has entries which are over 10 years old. I added a bit of stuff into it and it inspired me to read through my old lj entries. and i did. and i cried. my entries pretty much start in a stage of my life where i was more or less constantly depressed. i don't want to be depressed. i don't want to feel like i used to. i have goals in my life now. i have an image in my head of where i will be in 5 years and im slowly working toward it.
then i looked at the people around me and im amazed at a few people - amazed at the wonderful mum who blossomed into an amazing woman. you inspire me. im amazed at the person who was always depressed - nice to see ya smile. im impressed at my fag who i love dearly and who is building a life for himself. i applaud those of you who have just risen from the ashes and continue with life stronger and better then ever. you people inspire me to be a better person.
every one of you are amazing people - never ever forget that.

love you
xo